James M. Barrie
Stormy weather, sleepless night, painful body, and wild thoughts.
I wonder what today will bring. I'm driving towards school. The person in charge called me for an urgent meeting concerning my son Joe. I try not to think much and worry. I try to focus on something else. Today 29th February must be a special day. What's wrong with Joe? You know what's wrong silly!!!!, keep positive Nikky, keep positive!! Oh! It's Wednesday, question day! What will I ask Jodi about today? Joe is miserable and I'm sure they noticed. Keep driving Nikky, ignore those thoughts. I know what i will ask her: what makes you think I am strong??? How do you know I am? Don't you see me now shaking and anxious? I'm worried. Oh God, please make it a good day! Please send me strength and something nice that might calm me down!
I look at the sky, through eyes full of tears, and I see the most perfect and beautiful rainbow I have ever seen. I grab my mobile to take a photo to make sure I'm not dreaming.
The meeting was stressful, but I was strong. School is aware that Joe is abused, and wants to interfere. I would usually deny, today I didn't. I felt strong for you my friend, for you Joe, and for me.
Today is a good day, it has to be, it will be
1) The Rainbow
2) I could get over my fear and talked
3) Pat wrote me this wonderful message
There is a special lady,
Lives many miles away ...
She oversees my progress
And checks me every day.
All she needs are cuddles
And special hugs, I know
So I send Nicole my heart and arms
To keep her on the go.
Patricia Eastwood
