Friday, March 2, 2012
Celebrating Her Birthday
I have decided now to welcome March with Love instead of anxiety. Why worry about it before knowing what it will bring? Hello March, I'm ready!
Today is Her birthday. Today she will be 25. I have been waiting for this date since last year. I wanted it to be special. When she ended our friendship in June, I never thought that it would be for good, that she had made up her mind. Our friendship was so strong, I couldn't believe it was over.
Her decision caused me a lot of pain, her hurtful messages kept coming regularly for more than two months. I suffered, cried, got angry, frustrated. i begged and asked for forgiveness for whatever i might have done, but nothing would bring her back
I felt empty, abandoned and lonely. I felt betrayed. How could she abandon me while knowing what i am going through? This question was driving me crazy, so i sent a cry for help to a Facebook page Hold my Hand, and that was the beginning of a new life of true Love.
I was learning to let go, it has been very hard sometimes, memories were really painful, whether they were nice memories or bad ones, but with the love i was getting from my new friends and the help i was getting from the blogs i read, I have made a huge progress.
For her birthday today, the choice is mine. I can decide to feel angry, sad, depressed, or just decide to celebrate our friendship of 3 years.
Today I decide to smile and be happy. I won't let the hurt of few weeks delete the happiness of three years. The fact it is over doesn't mean it was all bad. we shared a lot, we cried and laughed, we helped each other, and learned from each other. Today i will celebrate all the lessons i have learned from her, and i will thank her for the love she showed, and the support and help she gave me.
Happy Birthday my Friend, I send you love and a virtual bouquet of your favorite tulips.
Today I am free, because today I let you go.....