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Wednesday, February 29, 2012

The Rainbow

Let no one who loves be unhappy, even love unreturned has its rainbow.
James M. Barrie

Stormy weather, sleepless night, painful body, and wild thoughts.
I wonder what today will bring. I'm driving towards school. The person in charge called me for an urgent meeting concerning my son Joe. I try not to think much and worry. I try to focus on something else. Today 29th February  must be a special day.  What's wrong with Joe? You know what's wrong silly!!!!, keep positive Nikky, keep positive!! Oh! It's Wednesday, question day! What will I ask Jodi about today? Joe is miserable and I'm sure they noticed. Keep driving Nikky, ignore those thoughts. I know what i will ask her: what makes you think I am strong??? How do you know I am? Don't you see me now shaking and anxious? I'm worried. Oh God, please make it a good day! Please send me strength and something nice that might calm me down!
I look at the sky, through eyes full of tears, and I see the most perfect and beautiful rainbow I have ever seen. I grab my mobile to take a photo to make sure I'm not dreaming. 

The meeting was stressful, but I was strong. School is aware that Joe is abused, and wants to interfere. I would usually deny, today I didn't. I felt strong for you my friend, for you Joe, and for me.

Today is a good day, it has to be, it will be
1) The Rainbow
2) I could get over my fear and talked
3) Pat wrote me this wonderful message
          There is a special lady,
          Lives many miles away ...
          She oversees my progress 
          And checks me every day.
          All she needs are cuddles
          And special hugs, I know
          So I send Nicole my heart and arms
          To keep her on the go.

                               Patricia Eastwood