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Sunday, May 27, 2012

Heart-Sisters

It's been three days since I wrote my last post "I Miss You", and I was still missing a comment from Pat who in fact inspired me to write that post. Today Pat not only commented, but she sent me a beautiful poem for my Blog :)







"I miss you" is the mask you wear when
you have such a lot to say
It's the lid upon the box within which
emotion's locked away ...
Cos you've lived a fearful life, I know,
but the time has now arrived

When you'll let that inner turmoil out
for, you see, you HAVE survived.

You have lived through childhood Hell and then,
just to underline the case
Married life has been a string of things:
accusations 'in your face'
He has knocked you out then in again,
and he's kicked you when you're down
Trying to make of you a laughing-stock,
showing you up while in town.

I'd like to say you're so much stronger now
than you ever were before
For you've found that shining inner self which
you're learning to love more
Now you walk along with your head held high -
you know your own pure worth
Which is far more than you've known before,
through this life 'til now, from birth.

Now, you bear a torch and you light the path
so that we can place our feet
On safe ground as we, too, head towards that place
where you and we will meet ...
For you paint clear pictures with your words which
we all can understand
Yes, you'll guide us through the boggy mire, '
til we reach that solid land.

Patricia Eastwood

On July 16 2011, I felt I had lost everything. My whole world was collapsing. It was less than a month since I had tried to put an end to my pain, less than a day since I felt abandoned by the person I loved most in my entire life. After she's gone, who would I live for? Who should I contact? Who can I talk to?

Those were the thoughts running through my mind when I came across a Facebook page Hold My Hand. First thing that attracted me was the profile picture, then I saw a message encouraging the readers to share their problems and ask for help. I liked the page then wrote on the wall that I needed help, but didn't want to share publicly on the wall. It took less than 5 minutes before I got a friend request from Patricia, the owner of the page.

That's how it all started. It wasn't only the beginning of a very special friendship, but it was also the beginning of my new life. Patricia held my hand and helped me through each day. She guided me, encouraged me and made me feel important and worthy. She listened, understood and never judged. She made me cry and helped me laugh.She gave me hope.She gave me my life back.
I have no words to describe our friendship, but what i am sure of is that it goes beyond time, words and circumstances.

Pat knows me much better than I know myself. When I met her I had only 12 contacts on my Facebook list. Pat opened the doors for me and introduced me back to the world. I made new friends on Facebook. She guided me to Jodi's page Heal now and Forever, and that was how I was introduced to the Blogger's world.  You are all my new family, and I love you so much.

Thank you Pat for being YOU <3

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  1. Such a lovely poem.
    i'm so glad that you found each other.
    This blog world is so amazing. xo

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    1. You're right Kimberly, It's amazing and I'm so happy to have you in my new circle of friends!!

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  2. I beg to differ, Nicole ... I wrote this one for YOU ...
    Then you informed me it would form the basis for a blog, LOL.

    I love you, dear heart-sister and YOU, too, have held MY hand over the last year, keeping me company through my dark hours.

    I have not had a friend and confidant like you in my life since my dear Auntie Ceri died, many years ago.

    Thankyou for being in my life.

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    1. N.B ... many thanks to all who have commented on my little contribution ... I suffer from verbal diarrhoea, I'm afraid, it is as easy for me to write doggerel as it is prose, LOL. My regards to you all. Namaste. Pat.

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    2. I know Pat that you love me, but what I'm sure of is that I love you MORE <3

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  3. Aww what a beautiful poem full of compassion and understanding. :-)

    Your friendship is very special. You've truly found a great friend in Pat, Nikky. She's a beautiful blessing to your life. :-)

    You both take care! God bless <3 :-)

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    1. Exactly Irene, our friendship is really special.
      All my friends are a blessing in my life. Thank you for being one of them :)

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  4. This is a beautiful poem Nicole! I am so happy that you have made friends through the Blogging world. I have made so many friends too and it truly does feel like I have discovered a new family. Thank you for always visiting and commenting on my blog posts and sorry I haven`t been round much to visit yours.

    Have a great week!

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    1. I feel so happy whenever I think of you all my friends. I'm so glad you feel the same :)
      No problem about about visiting my blog. You do when you can :)

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  5. Such a beautiful poem! I love the last verse, especially. I feel like you are truly helping to lead others, Nikky, as we help lead you. We are in this together and walking together.

    I'm so glad you found Pat and that she found you. And I am grateful that I found you, too, dear Nikky, because you have taught me a lot about the resilience of the human spirit and the heart's capacity for love.

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    1. Your words are always so beautiful Tina and you always touch my heart. I'm also happy I have found you. When I read your posts I can see how much we have in common. Love you <3 <3 <3

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  6. This is a beautiful poem and a lovely friendship you found there Nikky. It's precious having you here and reading you dear. Sending some love.

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    1. I'm happy to have you here too Marie. You understand me well!! Much love <3

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  7. What a precious, heaven-sent friendship you share! God never fails to place the right person in our lives when we most need him or her. Wonderful poem, too!
    Blessings, Nikky!

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    1. You are absolutely right Martha. This friendship is certainly arranged by God. I have always had Faith, but now I can close my eyes, and believe everything that happens is for my own good. Love you <3

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  8. Touchwood Nikky...to your friendship.

    The poem is really lovely . The bond you both share beautiful and adorable. :)

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    1. True, its beautiful and adorable and I wish for everyone a similar friendship :)Love <3

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  9. I cried many tears when I read this. It makes me realise so many things. Yes you are unique. you deserve only the best and more. I am so sorry I could not do what pat has done for you but the most important t hing is that you have her in your life. I wish you nothing but happiness, hope and justice. love you my friend. Glad to see you have made such good friends and found a place and people that love you too.

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    1. We all contribute to Nikky's recovery, Zee, each in our different ways ... I caught Nikky's cry for help at a time in my life when I was newly widowed and quite poorly ... so I had the time to devote to her because I was unable to leave the house. NOW, she is able to walk in her own footsteps.

      The love springs from mutual respect and was a wonderful, unexpected gift from Spirit, which means that now we are aware of our soul-links, too, we are fortunate to discover that we have a long history of walking together through many lives.

      Never put yourself down, Zee ... your contribution to many lives has been, Spirit tell me, inestimable.
      With respect, Pat.

      With best wishes from Pat.

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    2. why would this post make you cry Zee? We are best friends and sisters since 2007, and you have helped me through my darkest times too. You have been my guardian angel on that website, remember? Whoever dared tell me anything hurtful, had to deal with you afterwards :)
      It is not a matter of comparison Zee, and who did what and who did more. You gave me the support I needed at that time. Pat helped me change and get stronger, but that's because I was finally ready myself to change. I love you both so much. I love each and everyone present in my life now so very much.

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  10. Nikky! This is so beautiful and heart felt. Both of your love is a beacon. It is the love of heart sisters that will heal this whole, wide world. It starts with us women and our bonds leading the way. I am so glad you did not succeed in ending your life because of someone else's weaknesses. On to bigger and better worlds. We are all connected in love and compassion. I miss you just means love.
    Love,
    Jodi

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    1. Thank you so much Jodi. You too have a very special place in my heart. It's funny how it started. I remember I told Pat, but I don't remember if I told you :)
      I feel constantly in contact with you. You help me through your Blog, your comments, your Facebook page, emails, but you also help just by thinking of you :)
      I miss you <3

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  11. Wonderful indeed Nikky!

    That sure is a wonderful poem, and yes that's what friends are for- to give us support and help us when we are down - isn't it? I think what really matters is that we build relationships online based on trust and those relationships pull us through our hard times.

    Thanks for sharing and yes, this is a wonderful reminder for all of us to be grateful for the friends we have. :)

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    1. Thank you so much Harleena <3
      I was thinking now how precious are those online friendships and why I feel the bond so strong. I think the reason is that with online friendship we go directly to the soul, to the person's heart. There is nothing that can stop this connection. As human, we can't help but being influenced by what we see or hear. Online, we can be ourselves and not care about the way we look or the clothes we're wearing or the sound of our voice.

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  12. There's nothing like a special friend! I'm glad you have someone to share this journey with you. We all need friends like this. Thanks for sharing!

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    1. Thank you Nadine for your visit and for being part of my family here <3 Much love <3

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  13. Nikky, I'm glad you have people like Pat, and I hope you see that there are so many people whose lives you've impacted in a positive way. :)

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    1. Thank you so much Kelly for saying that. Those are very kind words to me, especially that I'm the kind of persons who ALWAYS think of herself like a burden on others

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    2. Please, don't think of yourself that way, Nikky. Others definitely don't see you as a burden. At least those of us here don't. I really enjoy seeing you on my blog and here. :)

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    3. Thank you so much Kelly :)
      You make me happy :)

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  14. What a beautiful friendship you have! It isn't easy going through our difficulties alone, and having even just one person to be there for us in the dark makes a lot of difference. It's inspiring to know that there are still people who are able to make it through their dark times, and people who are able to reach out to others when their presence is needed most.

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    1. Thank you very much Joyce for your sweet words. I am very lucky I have find pat and all my other great friends. I really don't know what i would do without them all.
      The dark times are still not over, but going through them is easier now

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  15. ~~~Nikky,
    So glad you are here telling us your story.
    God has BIG plans for you. Xx

    Love Love Love.

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  16. Nikky, Pat's poem is beautiful and so is this blog you have created. It has taken on a love-spreading life of its own. You deserve much credit! <3

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    1. Thank you so much Lisa!! I remember you telling me once on twitter that you tried to find my Blog but couldn't. At that time, I didn't have a blog and didn't think of making one. I'm so glad I did. <3

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  17. What a wonderful gift! And what a wonderful friendship! I'm so glad you asked for help that day and that your path led you to this beautiful place you've created.

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    1. Thank you so much Emily. I'm so glad I had the courage that day to ask for help. If I didn't, I really don't know where I would be now <3

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  18. What a beautiful poem -- and friendship. I'm glad you found your way out of the darkness!

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    1. Thank you very much Louise. I may not be really out yet, but at least I have hope and I can see the bright future <3

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  19. http://adverseuniverse.wordpress.com/2012/05/29/reader-appreciation-award-and-a-thank-you/

    I have nominated you for this award :D

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    1. Thank you so much Roxy. You gave me a Big smile for today :)

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  20. Thank you for sharing the poem, and your emotional story. There is a reason you are here!

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    1. Thank you Jennifer. Sharing it with all of you helps me a lot :)

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  21. Thanks for sharing your story. It's amazing how many people are willing to help and share their hearts with each other across the blogosphere.

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    1. Thank you so much Bridget for visiting and commenting.
      You are so right. I am getting an amazing support in the blogosphere and that is honestly my reason to smile :)

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  22. Pat's 'verbal diarhoea' like Stephen King's is a pleasure to read :)

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  23. Hello! I have something for you on my blog. :)))

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    1. Thank you so much!!! Wow. I'm really lucky!!!

      I went and checked it but didn't get the chance to reply yet. A little later today i will catch up with everything.
      Thank you so much. Much love <3

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  24. Awesome. The way we can all help and support one another here on the Blog-O-Sphere (why do I always picture the Bass-O-Matic?) is truly awesome. Beautiful poem, beautiful friendship, so glad to have found you. :-)

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    1. And Beautiful comment too!! Thank you very much Beverly :)
      I'm happy I found you too <3

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  25. I am glad to have met you and you have so much to give all of us! Hugs.

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    1. I'm happy I met you too my friend <3 <3 <3

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  26. Nikky, God bless Pat for being such a wonderful supportive friend! I find that it's in the darkest times of our lives when a comforting word can save us, even from ourselves. I'm so glad that through her guidance, you have been able to come out of your shell and connect with other people. In sharing your story, you are helping many people. Thank you for that! Love to you, friend! :)

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    1. I love your visits to my Blog Bella :)
      You always have nice things to tell me.
      Pat's help is amazing, and so is all of the support and love i am getting. Much love Bella <3

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  27. Nikky, what a wonderful experience for you! Facebook and the blogging world are vast, and truly beautiful connections happen regularly. I think we are led to those special people in perfect timing.

    I would love to invite you to join my FB blogging group, Authentic Blogger! It's one of the first FB blogging groups and we have a wonderful community full of talented, friendly people. Come join us!

    Authentic Blogger FB link: https://www.facebook.com/groups/AuthenticBloggerGroup/

    - Dawn

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    1. Thank you so much Dawn for inviting me to the group!!!
      I'm so happy. I never thought that in less than 3 months i can be really part of this wonderful community!!!
      Much love to you <3

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  28. What a lovely, moving post. I have read several of your comments and posts that express such gratitude. Your spirit shines through all these messages.

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    1. Thank you so much for you kind words, and for reading my Blog. I really appreciate that!! Much love <3

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  29. What a wonderful thing, to be understood. I am so glad that you reached out and that somebody grabbed your hand, Nikky. Sending love to you.

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    1. Thank you so much Heidi. I'm always happy to see you here. Much love <3

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  30. Lovely, lovely. We all need heart sisters. Yes.

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    1. true Alison!!! And now I have wonderful sisters from all over the world!!! Thank you for being one of them :)

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