"I miss you" is the mask you wear when
you have such a lot to say
It's the lid upon the box within which
emotion's locked away ...
Cos you've lived a fearful life, I know,
but the time has now arrived
When you'll let that inner turmoil out
for, you see, you HAVE survived.
You have lived through childhood Hell and then,
just to underline the case
Married life has been a string of things:
accusations 'in your face'
He has knocked you out then in again,
and he's kicked you when you're down
Trying to make of you a laughing-stock,
showing you up while in town.
I'd like to say you're so much stronger now
than you ever were before
For you've found that shining inner self which
you're learning to love more
Now you walk along with your head held high -
you know your own pure worth
Which is far more than you've known before,
through this life 'til now, from birth.
Now, you bear a torch and you light the path
so that we can place our feet
On safe ground as we, too, head towards that place
where you and we will meet ...
For you paint clear pictures with your words which
we all can understand
Yes, you'll guide us through the boggy mire, '
til we reach that solid land.
On July 16 2011, I felt I had lost everything. My whole world was collapsing. It was less than a month since I had tried to put an end to my pain, less than a day since I felt abandoned by the person I loved most in my entire life. After she's gone, who would I live for? Who should I contact? Who can I talk to?
Those were the thoughts running through my mind when I came across a Facebook page Hold My Hand. First thing that attracted me was the profile picture, then I saw a message encouraging the readers to share their problems and ask for help. I liked the page then wrote on the wall that I needed help, but didn't want to share publicly on the wall. It took less than 5 minutes before I got a friend request from Patricia, the owner of the page.
That's how it all started. It wasn't only the beginning of a very special friendship, but it was also the beginning of my new life. Patricia held my hand and helped me through each day. She guided me, encouraged me and made me feel important and worthy. She listened, understood and never judged. She made me cry and helped me laugh.She gave me hope.She gave me my life back.
I have no words to describe our friendship, but what i am sure of is that it goes beyond time, words and circumstances.
Pat knows me much better than I know myself. When I met her I had only 12 contacts on my Facebook list. Pat opened the doors for me and introduced me back to the world. I made new friends on Facebook. She guided me to Jodi's page Heal now and Forever, and that was how I was introduced to the Blogger's world. You are all my new family, and I love you so much.
Thank you Pat for being YOU <3